So Cold!

All day long the frost refused to go it lay sparkling and shimmering and I kept thinking of the homeless. Ireland is no place for the homeless. In summer its wet and damp. In winter its freezing no blanket keeps you safe or warms a street or a doorway.

The homeless have no food or water and as far as I can tell there are very few fountains. It seems like once there were fountains everywhere and everyone could drink now there are none and if you're homeless where do you go for a glass of water?

The sun was so strong everything shone. The good thing about winter frost is it covers grime, mud, debris and waste with clean rich diamond sparkles but there's no warmth in the sun just a bright glaring glow on the cold hard frost. Sunset was perfect it always is but for the homeless sunset is when fear sets in and nothing is colder than fear.

I read that some people are sheltering beneath makeshift tents in a Dublin park and that is cover from the rain, but it offers neither warmth or protection and is cold comfort on freezing days and nights.

All week it has been beautiful and freezing and all week I have been thinking of the homeless I don't hate myself for being warm. In truth I'm not that warm! But nor am I cold or thirsty may this winter go quickly and may the homeless find a home.

May you be warm this winter and may you never know hunger and thirst.

Sometime on Twitter

Life's a dream A kaleidoscope of Flashing images Changing patterns whiz And whirl Until you stop The spinning wheel On zero

Sometimes its rubbish,
Sometimes its not
But it is always and forever
Me

Why Did Donald Trump Win

And it wasn't just Donald Trump who won it was a clean sweep for Republicans and now Democrats are licking their wounds, screeching to a God they don't believe in and refusing to look the truth in the face.

The truth is Hillary Clinton is not the only reason Democrats lost here are some more but lets get Hillary out of the way first.

Reason Number One: 

Hillary Clinton was and still is facing the possibility of serious criminal charges previous generations might have called some of those charges Treason and the Democrat Party nominated her as their candidate for President of the United States, but sure we live in civilised times chances are she will get off and anyway in these civilised times the only people who would be charged with Treason are probably low ranking members of the military and low grade civil servants. Many, many people didn't like it.

Reason Number Two

Americans are told it is un-American to be proud to be American and to want all visitors to America to enter legally. Wanting visitors to America to have full, genuine identification is racist, just as many Americans didn't like this.

Reason Number Three

Rape culture people are expected to believe that every man is desperate to get into a womans nickers Any Americans who disagree with this are obviously misogynists even if they're women. Many probably all Americans and most of the world have had to endure the sight of a girl, a college student stumbling around with a mattress on her back. At first some said she did it because she had been raped but when that was proven to be untrue it was said she did it to highlight the rape culture. Never mind that unfounded allegations of rape is very serious and can wreck the lives of those falsely accused. and again many Americans didn't like this.

Reason Number Four

Gender: Americans are told and woe betide them if they disagree that there are now hundreds of genders and women should allow men to use womens rest rooms if a man or men want to get in touch with their feminine side regardless of whether they look or act like women or not  Never mind that allowing men to use womens rest rooms puts women and children in danger and at the very least causes embarrassment to young girls. How does that square with the need for 'safe spaces'? Its likely almost every parent and many young girls really dislike this.

Reason Number Five

Is more nebulous its homosexuality Americans are told they must accept homosexuality regardless of their own religious beliefs. Its not enough for Americans to treat homosexuals as equal and entitled to the same legal protections as anyone else they must believe homosexuals are entitled to more than mere equality, and for the record gender is NOT the same as homosexual.

Personally I think each of us is entitled to our own individuality and that's it. If we are entitled to our own individuality we are not entitled to impose our individuality on anyone else. We should do what 99% of people do which is get on with our own lives and let others do the same. If the organisers of a parade do not include homosexuals that's up to the organisers, besides most of us know what homosexuals on parade do, some will be leathered and mustachioed the rest will be in tasteful G strings. Its all been done, the likelihood of it changing a single mind is minus something and is probably completely counter to inclusion. Show trials about wedding cakes don't change minds they reinforce objections.

Reason Number Six

Everyone knows globalization only applies to America, the European Union which is NOT Europe, Australia, Canada and New Zealand. No other country is lectured on the irrelevance of their own nationality, In America, jobs are exported to low wages countries and Americans are told its good for them. Illegal immigrants are allowed to remain regardless of identification and criminal history. So called Sanctuary cities are proud to allow illegal immigrants to get jobs and housing at the expense of the long suffering legal population. and no one outside the politically correct liberal left believes or agrees with it

There are many more reasons 

What happened at the last Presidential election is the people said NO, they said it very loudly too, maybe Hillary Clinton will end up with the majority of votes there is talk of a million more people voting for her than for Donald Trump but there is also talk of three million fraudulent votes and so it seems the less said about actual votes the better it is for the Democrats.

And that is why Democrats lost almost no independents or of course Republicans believe a word they say, they have wrecked their own credibility in the most arrogant, blatant display ever seen in an election.

Democrats must now look at their own behaviour, the behaviour of their more notorious supporters and donors and clean house. Do they even realise an unelected to all intents and purposes private individual which Hillary Clinton was and still is virtually owned the Democrat party and all its decision making processes, Look at the way Bernie Sanders was robbed of a fair fight, Why did Hillary Clinton have so much power and influence? And when they've worked that out they must make sure no one ever takes over an entire political party again, they've got four years I hope they make good use of them.

I must admit I've long had questions about the Electoral College but if you look at the voting map its easy to see why it was chosen, in a country as big as America with each state semi independent each state must be treated equally or the big cities would decide every election and no way is that democratic. So, if people want the United States of America to remain united they must allow each state to have an equal say.

 

Twitter and all Social Media Sites

Do the owners of sites like Twitter and face book know who and why some, and it seems an increasing number, of accounts are shadow banned? Its a fascinating question because the very clandestine nature of it seems to require site owners to place a great deal of trust in site employees, unless of course site owners and/or directors check every account that's shadow banned as it happens, which seems unlikely.

Contracts may appear water tight and unbreakable but what if a member of staff bans someone for personal reasons? Is there not then an entirely different kind of case? Particularly if it can be shown a staff member hacked and stalked a site user then shadow banned that user to conceal the crime?

Social Media is changing and among the changes there appear to be attempts to ban people without telling them why they are banned. I think people deserve and have the right to be told. It seems arbitrary to ban someone for reasons they are not allowed to know. 

Its an interesting point, that's all I'm saying.

Filthy?

The state of our home regardless of whether its clean or dirty is more often a reflection of our state of  physical and emotional health only look at the number of people who obsess over domestic rituals or who allow a home to disintegrate because for whatever reason being there is something they hate and neglecting it the result. 

Is sex filthy? No! Of course not although talking about sexual intercourse, these days more often referred to as 'having sex' used to be. The old romantic novels and magazines used to refer to 'making love' I don't know if they still do but it seems a bit out of place today, after all sex can reflect every emotion including anger and humour and between consenting adults none of them are filthy.

Real filth exists in the mind. The mind of people who enjoy inflicting hurt on others. The creature who films people when they're in a bathroom, on a toilet or in a shop just trying something on. To the illegal filming of someone in their own home and then compounding their crime by sharing it among their accomplices. Its a state of mind that can't be cleaned and could get worse. 

No one who does such a thing can legitimately claim they cared about their victim in any way at all and the best their accomplices can say is at least they didn't make the film. Its filth there is no excuse or rational explanation there is just filth.

You Will Recall...

A week or so ago, I could check the date but why bother...I wrote about having to rearrange furniture to create space for two extra chairs so both Pippa and Trixie could have one each and stop bothering me and fighting each other, after much pushing and lifting I'm pleased to confirm whatever passes for peace in this hovel did indeed come to pass and..

I might have known it was too good to last. Jezzie and Maggie have discovered they don't have their own chairs. Now Maggie is easily dealt with you simply put her on the floor and she takes the hint. Jezzie is another canine entirely. Jezzie only ever takes hints if they involve something she likes. If she doesn't like she refuses to budge and if forced down jumps up again as soon as you turn away. after that if you dare to look at her she stares right back at you.

Anyone who thinks Jezzie is a good obedient girl has either never met or doesn't know her. I think its safe to say Jezzie now has her own chair she's not fussed about which chair just so long as no one tries to push her off it.

In response to all this I have brought another chair into the room as you can tell the room is getting rather crowded with chair legs but Gods forbid I should have one of the dreadful four glaring at me all night.

Storm in a Tea Cup

Add milk It rains Take sugar Volcano erupts Stir & an Earthquake's Triggered nudge & its a tsunami

Some Days

Are worse than others or so they say, honestly I've had too many bad days to keep track of I look back at the last seven years and I can't see anything good to hold onto, that is of course it is, partly my fault. Call it innocence or ignorance either way what it means is you do something unaware of how bad it is or how much worse it will get.

And you grow tired. For example I meant to put this house on the market but I didn't want to do it until I knew for sure where I was going, but that's not easy simply because as so often happens to all of us life gets in the way of plans and we end up letting it smother us.

I have always partly blamed myself but I've also always remembered the others and as much as I never forgive myself I will never forgive them, at least four of them could have been helpful and chose not, and that was a cruel and calculated choice.

Is it too late? No, not a bit if anything each time I've thought it might be circumstances correct me  In many ways now is the best time but I believe there are better times for full disclosure if I wait a bit, only think of the recent election I watched a video of Donald Trump saying he might have run for president four or eight years ago. He didn't he chose to run in 2016 and that has so many implications for the media who showed a side of themselves no one will forget, and it showed the power of social media and I hesitate to boast but I sure do know a lot about social media. So is now a good or bad time? You work out who has more enemies and more to lose.

Today I'm very upset which makes today a bad time to do anything but tomorrow beckons and hopefully I will feel better, or maybe not. Its hard to feel better when everything around you conspires against it until now its not a choice anymore its my health and if I don't change the climate and the situation I am the one who will suffer.

In one way I write an awful lot about me but from all the reading I've done I've discovered in many ways I'm rather reticent. Always one step removed from it, but not tonight. Tonight I'm tired I want out and I have finally accepted there will be no agreement. I've probably said that before because in truth I've always known it I just never wanted to believe it. I must do it myself and surely I will

I know this post will be read and that's another example. It will be read and denied and lied about but it will be read and that is something else I must and will end and not in Ireland 

LEONARD COHEN 21/09/34 – 10/11/16

A great and very talented man has left us. Leonard Cohen has been a not always comfortable part of my life since about 1967, that’s when he had his first hit record but he had been on the edge of greatness for a time before that and I honestly can’t remember if I knew of him before his hit song or not.

What that means is Leonard Cohen has almost always been a part of my life starting in my teens and like a rock of sanctuary staying ever since.

I will miss him.

You know part of me will be glad when 2016 is whistled and yelled into the history books for 2016 is the year we all lost too many of the great and wonderful talents and I don’t know if we have the talent left to replace originality or if we are become too small and mean to even see it might be possible..

RIP Leonard Cohen I wish you could have stayed.

America is Broken

Its been broken bit by bit the largely white liberal class who like to forget any part of history they disagree with or which confounds the myths they think we should all worship.

Currently the liberal thinking seems to be everyone must hate the white male because in their view the white male is responsible for every ill on the planet, white women seem to get a pass because after all some of them are pretty to look at and if possible enslave.

The white male didn't discover America it was discovered by what are now called indigenous Indians who did not drop from a tree they landed in boats in exactly the same way as the white male did centuries later.

What the white male did was create America, the white male took the vast un named and undeveloped land and filled it with dreams, ideas, people and creativity. America is a construction of dreams of hope, survival and triumph over enormous odds. Today you can fly from sea to shiny sea in a couple of hours but in the beginning it took months of hard trekking and death defying daring and hope to travel a few hundred miles. But the white male and of course white women did it, many of them broke and/or died in their efforts and it was their efforts that created America. A land everyone wants to live in and which some immigrants deny was ever a huge barren and largely empty desert of a place

The white male wasn't the first to discover the wilderness but it was the white male who tamed it and made it desirable to move to and live in. Remember that

The white male didn't invent slavery and it certainly existed in America long before the white male found it but maybe the white male is guilty of to a certain extent industrializing slavery,  The ancestors of the white male were slaves it was still common when the white male created America, they simply carried on the tradition until they realised, and it was the white male who did realise it, that slavery was both inhuman and uneconomic.

A slave has to be fed, housed and clothed all the year round and while clothing and housing can be neglected to the point of nudity and shacks if your fortune is invested in owning slaves they must be fed well enough to at least appear worth buying.

It was the white male who ended slavery,in the white world we know this for certain because slavery still exists in many non white countries indeed Islam still encourages slavery.

America is a grand place I regret I will never go back but its liberal leaders have been lying to Americans for years and forcing the white male to shoulder a burden that in truth is not his to bear.

For the record The English who get the blame for everything were the slaves of everyone the  Danes, Vikings, Irish, the Romans and even William the Conqueror enslaved the English that's why he is still called Conqueror. It was the British who tried to end slavery which is something no liberal likes to acknowledge, but not even the best navy of its day or the newest most successful empire could end slavery entirely they could only make it illegal and do their best to enforce the law. As already said they were not entirely successful.

Donald Trump has never shown the slightest sign of being racist, what he has made very clear is he wants clearly defined national borders and that upsets all globalists and many Hispanics and Latinos Globalists who are mainly big business owners and bankers see open borders as a method of encouraging immigration and through it cheap labour. Many Hispanics and Latinos see America as theirs and Donald Trump as someone who would prevent them from taking over America.

America needs to shrug off the lies and rediscover itself in truth, there have certainly been bad and hard times but so has there everywhere and whilst its easy to blame the white male for all the bad, hard times its not true. To say it is is to ignore and hide the facts of history and the world today.

President Donald Trump

I almost did it. I almost stayed the course but at six am I was tired and I knew I had to be up at 10 am so knowing Donald Trump had almost certainly won I reluctantly gave in and went to bed.

Wow! This morning the world has spun on its axis Donald Trump is president the Clinton cartel and the evil bias of the main stream media and their colleagues the opinion pollsters have lost, the almighty chasm between them and the voting public visible. It will take a very long time to put the shards of the main stream media back together and for anything the main stream media says to be believed. In so many ways this election was a triumph for social media and in fact for both sides of the social media divide.

Wikileaks played a blinder as of course did its besieged leader Julian Assange. and thank goodness for them they were always there with fresh revelations of Clinton and DNC dishonesty and corruption. The whole world owes the indefatigable efforts of Wikileaks 'bigly'

Major social media sites, their professional trolls aka unemployed journalists couldn't shake the army of amateurs who took to social media galvanized into action by the endless hypocrisy and lies of the hosts of tv news channels, and no I don't count my voice among the amateurs. My voice is usually locked behind a wall of professional trolls and their masters.

It has been an educational experience and now its one of relief. Early (ish) in the evening I almost gave up and went to bed. As usual the polls looked grim for Donald Trump and as much as I don't believe a word a pollster says I knew these were the last polls and the only ones that mattered, then I remembered I had felt much the same when the pollsters predicted a huge loss for Brexit supporters and I thought 'they're at it again. Stay the course!'

And I nearly did. I went to bed knowing Donald Trump had almost certainly won and this morning the feeling is one of relief and gratitude to all those American voters who voted for jobs, education and their culture and who after more than a year of relentless distortion and lies had the courage to ignore the arrogance and patronising voices of Clinton News Network and all the other biased prejudiced satellites who until this morning surrounded and protected the Clinton cartel behind an apparently unassailable scaffolding of lies.

Time for Loretta Lynch, Comey, Paul Ryan, the entire Bush family and not least for Barrack Hussein Obama and Bill and Hillary Clinton to face the music.

Well done Donald, President Trump and well done his wife and children they all worked tirelessly to achieve the freedom of the American people. May the nightmare of globalism and the attempted genocide of the European race and its freedom loving diverse culture be over.

The Supreme Court of the United States is safer today than it has been in decades. Time to give careful consideration to retirement Ruth Bader Ginsburg.

Manchurian Huma?

Today I was going to write a brief history of Huma Abedin problem is I became bored and I also couldn't fail to notice almost everyone has already written about her. Check her DOB and you will see on the very first page a long list of articles questioning her history and suitability to be Hillary Clinton main assistant. I can only read the same thing so many times before it occurs to me that A) most writers are better than me and B) I don't want to copy or search. I've grown into the habit of writing what I think straight off the top of my head. Its opinion I don't care if anyone reads it still less do I care if anyone agrees with it.

And, what did I want to say about Huma Abedin anyway? That she might be some sort of mole for half a dozen major Middle Eastern donors to Hillary Clinton campaign and to the Clinton Foundation? Everyone knows that so why bother.

What about she was a working mum who worked away from home a great deal and does that give Anthony Weiner an excuse for being such a stupid, arrogant and failed pervert? I don't think so.

What about for someone who was raised in a strict Muslim household with both parents convinced Islam empowers women, they must be certifiable, Huma Abedin has done an admirable job of throwing off the shackles of subservience and making a successful career. She has also thrown off the burka and all head coverings associated with Islam, none of which are required by Islam but all of which seem to be required by many Muslim men.

In many ways Huma Abedin is a remarkable and admirable example of independent woman throwing off the shackles of the dominant male without apparently wounding the dominant males feelings too much, although there is still the problem of Anthony and his little idiosyncrasies.

I honestly don't know about Huma Abedin but if she did or does have a file called 'Life Insurance' knowing the Clintons I think that is another example of forethought and wisdom.

Failing any incriminating evidence as yet undiscovered I admire her achievement and wish her well, and a speedy divorce Anthony Weiner was not a good choice... 

Hillary Clinton V Donald Trump

I'm not a natural Donald Trump supporter I would have preferred to support Bernie Sanders but I was sure right from the beginning that Hillary Clinton had the Democratic nomination stitched up and whatever Sanders did he would not win the nomination and guess what, its now proven Clinton and her DNC cohorts fiddled the Democrat nomination and she 'won'. Nice and possibly criminal fraud but with so many crimes to choose from where she is concerned who cares about rigging the Democrat nomination, right?

I do actually so from the start I watched Donald Trump. He's not a politician but he has always been interested in politics and for many years he has donated to both Democrat and Republican candidates and causes. In some instances it was probably because it made good business sense to be on the right side at the right time, but that doesn't negate his interest it heightens it. As far as I know his business interests have always been legal and his behaviour if sometimes reprehensible has always been within the law.

I like that Donald Trump speaks the language of the voter not the politician. I like that so far as I can see he has, in spite of two divorces maintained a strong, affectionate relationship with his children and I like that even though they were probably carefully selected the members of his business who have spoken for him appear to have done so easily and without sounding rehearsed.

So, I like much of what I've seen and learned about Donald Trump and as importantly I strongly dislike almost everything I've seen and learned about Hillary Clinton. I must admit I've been anti Clinton since good ole boy Bill did his best to disgrace the Oval office. I don't care how many blow jobs he gets but I do care when he thinks its fine to have one in the Oval office as long as no one finds out. He should have more respect for the office of the President of the United States but he didn't then and I doubt he's changed much.

I believe both Bill and Hillary Clinton adore their daughter Chelsea from some things I've read Hillary may not have had a maternal instinct until she gave birth to Chelsea but I don't believe there's a shred of doubt that she loved her from that moment. The open displays of affection are the most normal, endearing things about Bill and Hillary Clinton, but its not enough to camouflage their indifference to all the women Bill Clinton has abused or to the twelve year old victim of a rapist that in a truly appalling display of cruelty and ignorance to his victim Hillary Clinton got off with time served. Nothing can camouflage the fact the rapists victim was twelve year old child injured so badly she was in a coma for five days and could never have children and that Hillary Clinton knew he was guilty.

If I were able to vote in the election tomorrow I would vote for Donald Trump and give him the chance to clean out the cesspit that Washington has become. I hope he wins because if he is true to his word he will be very good for America

It occurs to me that this looks as though I've given no thought to the different careers and policies of Hillary Clinton and Donald Trump and that's misleading and wrong. I've looked long and hard at both but frankly I think concentrating on careers and policies gives Donald Trump an easy victory.

I don't believe Donald Trump is the wonderful human being being presented to us as. I believe much of his generosity is for PR purposes and his main attitude is My way or No way.

Hillary is an open and fascinating book. She is a career politician, utterly indifferent to everything except the very few people she cares about and corrupt beyond the entire western experience of corrupt politicians.

I therefore believe comparing the two careers and policies achieves little and would be too one sided in terms of practical achievement, better for me to concentrate on what we know of both families. Donald Trump appears close and loyal to his family and seems to be held in deep affection and respect he has other achievements but why go there they are very well known.

Hillary Clinton appears devoted to Bill and daughter Chelsea and as odd as it seems I don't doubt Bill Clinton is just as devoted to Hillary and Chelsea. Chelsea in spite of their reputations seems to regard both parents with an affection and respect that equals the Trump family.

I Just Happened

To be thinking of this blog and how unscrupulous, smug & abhorrent some creatures of the night are so obviously I came here to vent.

This is me and mine alone. I don't mind who reads it as long as the stats reflect their visits and since this blog is not publicized there should not in any event be many visitors, and yes, I do know there are ways I could check for myself but I don't write this blog to create work or problems for myself I write it to please myself, those who get paid for their less than interesting efforts should think on that.

I won't be stopping and thanks to their never ending interest I may well increase my output and what could be better and more satisfying than that?  Indeed if they don't stop interfering with the stats and trying to intimidate me I may well extend my attention to other admittedly boring but on the other hand even more suspicious sites.

I'm not one who would throw good money after bad to do my house up or get my teeth fixed, nor am I one who would get a divorce because I make a good living pretending I can write and so can safely dump the rapidly aging other half.

Mistakes were made but mine were in innocence and I'm the only one who can say that.

There is a debt and it WILL BE PAID

CSA Inquiry

Appears to have been almost entirely emasculated and in the throws of deteriorating into a massive and very expensive talking shop. All very luvvie no doubt and as a consequence almost entirely useless.

Many, perhaps most victims of CSA & CPA (child sexual abuse and child physical abuse) in government, religious and privately owned institutions want some form of financial compensation, partly because it may help to finance their recovery from all the lost years of and after their stolen childhood and partly because it is physical proof of belief and regret, but I believe what the vast majority really want is for their abusers to be thrown in prison for a very long time.

Recently a senior police officer was sentenced to twelve years in prison for sexually and physically abusing boys in their early teens in his care. Gordon Anglesea is a sadistic paedophile/pederast who gives the lie to every academic argument and there have been many in favour of paedophilia and pederasty. At Gordon Anglesea age twelve years is not so bad. He will be in a nice, safe open prison all bills paid and protected from every wind that blows, whatever compensation his victims are entitled to and its a lot will never be enough to compensate for the abuse they endured and it most certainly will not bring back the young man who committed suicide after the evil monster won a libel case against the magazine that publicly called him a paedophile.

Some people are fragile and they not Gordon Anglesea, are the ones I want to concentrate on here. The CSA Inquiry appears to be suffering more from an overwhelming presence of victims of abuse than from an absence of care and attention.

In spite of all the protestations most victims of CSA are not experts on paedophilia or CSA in general, at best the only thing they are expert of is their own suffering, they can't and shouldn't claim to know more than their own experience. Counselling for victims of CSA is a relatively new branch of counseling services. I think the truth if its ever told,, is that most professional counselors didn't give it a thought until about six years ago. Rape counseling is much older but the two share nothing more than a very tenuous link and to compensate for the lack of real expertise some victims of CSA have set themselves up as both counselors and advocates.

Really its very laudable and understandable but it may not be at all healthy. Some may have no more than their own experience to refer to and rely upon and some unscrupulous people may try to take advantage of wounded victims, some counselors appear to have links to lawyers who concentrate on the potentially lucrative compensation market and some may go so far as to try to insert their own experiences of child abuse onto the already wounded minds and emotions of other victims of abuse.

Its a messy, dangerous area and apparently either totally unpoliced or insufficiently policed, this is because its recognition is so recent rules and regulations are lagging behind, but rules and regulations are needed in this almost more than in any other area of sexual abuse and domestic violence abuse.

And its this area I believe is in danger of destroying the investigation into child sexual abuse. Its no good well meaning people giving time and authority to victims of abuse who basically are no more than experts of and witnesses to their own abuse. No two people are the same and no two people have the same indepth reaction to years of abuse, there are similarities but they are superficial only expert attention should be given to victims because every other has the potential to do more harm than good to people in crisis and also completely overlooks the, however unpleasant, fact that some victims of abuse do go on to become abusers and that is a very specialist area indeed.

Because of their abuse and very often because their claims of abuse have been ignored for years some victims become aggressive in their championing of what they believe victims need, these are possibly the most dangerous people hovering over the CSA Inquiry. The emotional and physical pain they endured can cloud the judgement of well meaning people to such an extent they subjugate their own experience and indeed common sense in attempting to be supportive and empathic toward noisy, aggressive victims.

The CSA Inquiry has lost its main lawyers. I was no supporter of Ben Emmerson and I still think he was a bit more of a bull in a china shop than was needed. Lowell Goddard was not a choice I agreed with either and now both have gone but the reasons they have gone appear to be at best murky and possibly for very good reason. Emmerson made it clear from the start he would not tolerate interference from so called victims panels and Lowell Goddard appears to have gone for when you read between the lines much the same reason.

The problem is the law doesn't and can't take sides no lawyer will take orders from a victim when the subject is the law and if any victim of abuse wants justice they have got to use the law to get it nothing else will work. For the CSA Inquiry to succeed victims of abuse must allow the lawyers to do their job, and this hasn't happened in the CSA Inquiry to the extent senior lawyers have packed their briefcases and gone, there might be a fleeting moment of victory for some very vocal victims and their supporters but the reality is its a major loss to the CSA Inquiry and will be felt most and hurt the victims of CSA more than any other if they see their allegations reduced to touchy feely ineffective comments in a very expensive talking shop

I think the CSA Inquiry as it is now formed will be ineffective and maybe counter productive. It should be abandoned and a new Inquiry formed that will keep victims at arms length so that real investigation can take place into the many institutions and VIP paedophiles who at the moment seem to be about to get off - again.

Its a Knack...

I didn't want to. Its not like I planned it. On the contrary I did in fact do my best to avoid the necessity. I placed the order and whilst doing so I couldn't fail to notice there was no Cats Club. None. To say I was peed off about that is to put it very mildly. Well! I could hardly watch them starve could I? I gave in. I girded my loins, took a big bag and went to town.

I was not, as they used to say, a happy bunny and the disenchantment grew...I could tell something was wrong as I strolled up the road, and yes it is up there is a definite incline not enough to call a hill but its there nevertheless, it never rains but it fucking hisses down.

It was a bank holiday, almost every shop, not that I like any of them, was shit shut. I snarled a bit but I knew Tesco would be open and that after all was where I was headed. I don't know how I manage to do it but I'm pretty sure I have an unbroken record for going into town to get shopping on the one day the shops are shut...

Shopping online is a real boon if not for it I would be a corpse by now but I do still get irritated. I mean I can't use 4 pints of milk, I'm not unwilling indeed I've tried but it just can't be done, the milk goes all peculiar before I get halfway down the massive bottle, so of course I always order 2 pint bottles. Not this time. Milk is milk I refuse to pay almost E50 cents more for a posh bottle when Tesco own brand is only E79 cents! So that was added to the list.

Not light weight do you see? I was only going to get six tins of Cat Club but I couldn't resist it I had to get 12 tins, and naturally I had to get some eclairs for the addict. Not by any means a lot of shopping but definitely heavy...I didn't consider a taxi A) I don't like three of the taxi drivers I know and B) I forgot to get cash back at the checkout. I told myself not to worry I could walk to the bank and get some cash there. I lied. I turned at the nearest shortcut and staggered onward.

You have no idea how heavy shopping can get in no more than a minute or two. I mean bearing in mind the wretched bag was heavy before I left the shop.

I struggled on and made it to the bench on what passes for a main road in Mayo and sat down to get my breath back and unstick my aching fingers from the handles of the bag.  And, that's when I got lucky! One of my nice neighbours, yes I do have some and I'm very grateful to them, stopped and gave me a lift home!

Right to my door! Once inside the world returned to its usual not quite alive but not yet dead condition, the addict had her fix, my legs stopped trembling, the almost life gradually flowed down to my finger tips and once in doors I made a cup of tea and spent a happy hour checking the houses for sale in Clacton and day dreaming which is I am here to tell you a hell of a lot better than real life in Mayo.

Did I mention Trixie has taken to using my laptop as a stepping stone to anywhere else? I don't blame her its not as though I like this one anymore. As soon as I get to Clacton its gone, gone into the bin if I have anything to do with it...